Every website,every discussion,every interview about Sensory Processing Disorder is an opportunity to answer the question for someone,somewhere,who has been wondering all their life,“What’s wrong with me?”

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The Transition from Wellbutrin to Celexa for Anxiety

Celexa vs Wellbutrin

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I’m starting a new life today. In my new life,when I wake up at 4 in the morning,I get out of bed,drink a cup of warm soy milk and write down the words that elude me the rest of the hours of the day.

I’ve been fighting this new life with its 4am wakeup time for weeks now. I am a person who must have at least eight hours of sleep each night. Otherwise,I chug through my day cranky,sore and brittle with despair.

It was never uncommon for me to wake every couple of hours,

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The Madness Memoir –Adult SPD

Lane Reads the DSM for Memoir Madness

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Sometimes we just have to laugh at ourselves…

As an adult with sensory processing disorder,I am contemplating a memoir with each chapter named after a mental illness found in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Each chapter could highlight a scene or reflection that illustrated how that mental illness manifested in my life. I could have a chapter for:learning disabilities,major depressive disorder,Asperger syndrome,obsessive/compulsive disorder,hypomania,substance abuse,anxiety,etc. I could also have chapters for disorders which have not yet been named,categorized or quantified. Like the one my friend,the sociology major,and

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Addiction and Adult SPD –Prelude

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SPD?  Addiction? A match cast in my neurons before I was born.

Although it has been many years since I imbibed in any recreational drug,including alcohol,I must admit to a somewhat sullied past regarding controlled substances.

Please remember,addiction is just a point on a long continuum of when and why a person uses a psychotropic.

The first step on that continuum is the discovery that the substance solves a problem. A person with an undiagnosed or unmanaged sensory processing disorder has plenty of problems,chief among them – little to no control over how she reacts,how

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Meltdown

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It was a perfect storm first thing in the morning.

Gentle rain soothed like a lullaby,gently lapping unconsciousness over my attempt to surface into the day.

Just move, I told myself when I next poked my head above dreamy morning sleep.

The best I could do was fumble for the stereo remote.

Morning Edition broadcast a report from Japan about people enduring hunger,loss and misery.

Still in bed,surrounded by pillows,I rebuilt the structure that was washed away while I slept. It’s a barrier to keep me safe from images;only words are allowed through. I build

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Prius part3 –Navigation

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Driving can replenish my energy or deplete it,depending on the circumstances of the trip and the road. On this day,the goddess of the adventure smiled upon me. Navigating Prius 1 through the streets of Houston had the feel of roller-blading or mountain biking;proprioceptive delight flooded my nervous system. I felt up to the challenge of this day. The feeling had eluded me all morning,but I had it now,driving,and the pleasure of having captured it made me smile.

I arrived in the parking lot with ten minutes to spare. How that happened seemed like a

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Prius part4 –Pain and Despair

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“That’s it. We got $3K for the pickup. He’s going to put the paperwork together and it’ll be over except for the signing.”

“You’re going to stay there?” I asked in horror. The plan we discussed this morning was he’d leave as soon as the appraiser had seen the truck. We’d complete negotiations over the phone. They would do the paperwork and we’d go back at some future date to sign and pick up Prius 2.

“It’s alright. I have my computer open. No one is bothering me because ‘I’m working.’”

“That’s slick,” I said,“What are you really doing?”

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